I always need someone to talk to.
I need a person to share my stories, everyday.
I want to text him like 24/7, saying what I've been through to prove myself that I ain't alone.
I want to text him every morning, just to tell him my dreams.
I want to text him every single time he did something well, so we'd appreciate one another..
And I want him to treat me well, to make me feel I'm precious and my stories are interesting, so I'd comfortably tell it to him.
I, need to be appreciated for every important things I did, for my decisions, and my days.
I need someone who'll say,
"You look great!" when I put on my best clothes and going out.
"You're so pretty!" when I try to put some makeup on, or when I cut my hair.
"You did well, Olldry." when I get a good score in the semester, or when I do something difficult, like being success on installation design and sort things.
"It's delicious!" when I make foods, or when I try to bring him to a good restaurant.
For if it is an easy thing for them, I still want to hear that.
Because what they've been through isn't as same as mine. It might be easy for them, but not for me.
I know it's hard to listen, and to have someone who'll carefully listen to my stories.
I'll be okay with some critics, really. But what if you put a good sentence -- or appreciate first, before judging?
Yes, we need to be honest. It doesn't mean we have to put someone down when it's the best they can do, right?
We need to educate with critics, not downing. You want me to change --- it won't work if you pointly say harsh things to me.
I know, some people think that "It is the best way to handle situations" or something that against this thought.
Oh dude, it's not like that!!
Ok, you may handle the situations, but there'll be some psychological damages on that person. --- they feel like they're a bad person that ever exist in this world.
Being appreciated is important for someone like me -- i'm easily being down whenever bad things happen.
Hahaha sounds crunchy but yeah, thats me.
I'll feel bad if people say bad things toward me, especially if its done by people I love.
I can ignore people that dont know me, but I never be okay if the words come from my loved ones.
Their comments are so important because I thought they are the people who knows me better than anyone who dont.
...
I do have people that treated me sooooo right, I can't believe they are exist! :"))
But some of them have walked throughout my life that I couldn't ask them to go back. I've tried, and I failed.
I just have the rest of them that I'll keep until the time when it is too hurt to be with me.
Whenever I'm with them, we attached emotionally.
My days getting better, I don't feel sad or uncomfortable with myself --- I feel confident, and proud to be myself because they made me feel that I am amazing.
Those feelings is really hard to find.
There were just plenty of people who'd make you feel that way.
So,
Listen, appreciate everything.
I know you can.
*p.s. : Sorry, this post was just me, who tried to fill things one by one. It sounds random, sometimes one paragraph doesnt match with the next.
But I'll do better next time.
